Personal Creation

看了朋友的词一时心血来潮创作的 ，其中的含义应该只有我知道吧。呵呵。但不晓得这种应该属于什么类别。不诗不词的，汗。
总觉得繁体字好好看，就是不好动手写，我是属于懒惰一族。

孤夜雨落無時盡 冷笑寒風次玉冰

First Day @ Taiping

Dear Hawk,

Now is already 3+am, I'm definately very tired from long journey (8 hours) from SG to Taiping, and from entertaining my niece till 12+am but yet sleep eludes me. I know the reason very well, the sense of insecurity and neglectedness are starting to overwhelm me once again. Am I forgotten again? Why do I feel so weak. Isn't my 2008 resolution is to be strong and less emotional? Why am I not getting anywhere close? Sigh, decided to dismiss this topic. Tomorrow noon I will be going down to Pantai Remis where my beloved grandparents are at. Can't wait to see them and I'm sure they will be very happy to see me.

I admit I'm OLD, no longer energetic as before. Although I'm reluctant to play with my niece, I still surrender to her persistent or should I say pestering?! I do find her crocodile tears irritating. Her tears is like the water tap, can flow anytime! She use that to get what she wants, and she is barely 6 years old! Another spoiled kid you would think, no doubt she is since she is my uncle and aunty only grandchild, they really dote on her, everything also give in to her. Initially I plan to use internet the whole day I'm here but my plan was spoilt by her.

My cousin and I bring her out for lunch and dinner and it was like, embarrassing? She just cannot stop talking. Gosh, I can really feel my patience slipping away. Oh well, she is just a kid so we must be patient and forgiving. Thank goodness I will only be staying here for 1 night. No matter how tired I say I was, she also don't let me go, keep showing me her 'tears'. Got to entertain her, wouldn't want her to disturb my uncle spring clean, he kept climbing up and down, pretty dangerous.

Looking at my blog is a good example of proving how fast time flies. Just noticed that whole of year 2007, I wrote only 1 entry. Do forgive me for the sudden entry, I don't know why do I have this urge to write down this day. Will I continue to blog? Honestly I'm not sure. How I wish you were real, for I know you would always be there for me, only me no others, no matter what happened.

Msg for the day: 明知道痛苦还要坚持到底是为了什么？那份执著是否会把人坠入那可怕的地狱？被忽略的感觉往往都会让人坐立难安，心神不宁。在你玩得正开心的当儿，你是否曾想起一个你遗漏的人？傻瓜，都说是遗漏了，哪还会想起你？又不是第一次，怎么你还是那么的天真。其实你心里很清楚你等待的那通电话或简讯不会来，怎么还有所期待呢？是人之常情吗？那这未免太可悲了。一对情侣，孤掌怎么能鸣呢？记住：两个人的寂寞是无止尽的。真要选这条路吗？
Song for the day: Eason Chen - Ai Qing Zhuan Yi [陈奕迅-爱情转移]

First Time @ Mee Hoon Soup

Dear Hawk,

Yesterday I bought a packet of mee hoon home because I want to play with it. Mummy went back pantai remis meaning she won't be cooking so I thinking maybe I can cook something for myself. Why? Because most of the time I'm too lazy to step out of the house to packet food or buy maggi mee. Actually I don't know how to cook. Want to learn but too lazy. As a girl, I don't even know how to cook white rice! Whenever I talk about it sure got laughed at. I admit its quite a shame but I still too lazy to learn! Sue me? Shoot me? I don't care. =X

Just now I tried cooking mee hoon soup and I succeeded! The soup base is chicken flavour but I added tomyan seasoning inside as well. Sprinkle in grounded blackpepper and added some light soya sauce. Inside fridge got nothing much, but managed to find carrot (yucks, I hate that but for health sake I still chop some slices). I avoid the mushroom, no thanks. Found some dried seaweed, I kind of like that. Overall it turned out to be pretty nice despite very simple cooking. Although I'm sure anyone can cook it but still I find it an achievement for myself.

Before I cooked I asked my brother whether he want also, he say no thanks. While I was eating he ask whether is that edible. Gosh, of course! If its inedible, I would have pour away instead of sitting there enjoying my mee hoon soup. I'm delighted! Whoosp, today a nice windy sunday, but very hot and humid. Windy yet hot, rather contradicting mix. Guess later I will be hiding inside my room with aircon on and indulging my animes. Still the same old me, slacker! Yeah! But then must move my laptop inside room. Hope no one tripped over the cable wire, if not I got to say goodbye to my poor laptop.

End of 2006

Dear Hawk,

I know that it has been more than half a year since I last updated. Actually I stopped because I find it pointless to blog. At times I have doubts, do I blog for myself or others? Seems like the latter. Does anyone actually wrote out the 100% complete truth on public blogger? I doubt so.

I went shopping with Mit and Ryn at Bugis Village. Didn't managed to buy anything. Was helping Mit find tube dress. For me I don't plan to buy anything from there. Just now was out in the rain again on my way back home. People who know me would know that I never bring umbrella out no matter how heavy the rain is if I go places further than my house area. Consequence would be I'm drenched. My cough have not yet recover, 2 weeks already!! Pray that I won't get fever later.

Year 2006 is coming to an end. Not a great year for me or my friends. Hope next year would be better. Being doing reflection for this year. Hopefully next year I can improve on myself and learn from mistakes/lessons I have learned this year. Life is about looking forward isn't it? No point regreting the past or shall be trapped. In summary, I know I'm much more stronger this year, have learned how to think and look at things from more perspective. Learned alot from friends and other people even strangers. Thanks! I.E. Become more mature in my mindset. Don't laugh at me. I seriously meant that. Lol.

Mahjong With El, Ling & Qiong..

Dear Hawk,

Just now I went dinner with my sis and go Queensway with her since she want to get something.. After that we went Ikea buy the hotdog buns~ I bought 2 worx.. Nice de.. When I just nice reach my front door Elgene called to go makan again -_- After that we went fetch Xiuling then MingQiong.. Initially all have no idea where to go, even got think till ktv.. We ended up going Elgene's house playing mahjong.. Kinda fun lor.. Playing mahjong and crapping.. Long time never meet up le.. All from volleyball during sec sch days de.. I lost $1 and MQ lost $2.30.. Last few rounds Elgene keep winning sia.. Yawnz.. Xiuling don't know how to play so she win or lose also don't need pay =) We teaching her at the same time..

Sad..

Dear Hawk,

Not being feeling well these few days.. Kinda heaty.. Honestly, I don't really feel like going back SG.. But stay here add more burden to my grandparents.. If I know malay I sure find a job here and stay with them de lor.. Haiz.. Kinda worried, they not in good health worx.. My grandfather everyday still goes out drinking, anything happen at home also don't know de worx.. My grandmother kinda weak de, can feel faint anytime.. I cannot stay here also.. I still got to serve a 3 years tution grant bond working fulltime in sg.. sux lor.. Really no see any future sia.. Can't bear to leave them here and go back sg.. I sure cry when go back time de.. Everytime also without fail de.. I'm more attached to them than my parents lor.. Since from young is my grandparents and my godmother taking care of me.. I rather stay with them than my parents.. >_<

Slack Slack..

Dear Hawk,

Not being online for a few days coz the road to the main shop closed at night coz of funeral.. If want go must use the long and dark way and I'm not really familiar with it so don't dare cycle out (Got many dogs also!).. Life here is too slack.. Wake up bath (cold water only.. freezing sia) -> Eat breakfast -> on TV then watch Taiwanese Opera -> wash clothes (always forgot =.= need ppl remind.. lol) -> Eat lunch -> cont. with opera series -> bath -> Eat dinner -> TV -> Supper (not every night) -> Bedtime.. Here latest I sleep is 2am lehz.. Can't imagine that.. Gosh.. Coz got curfew, grandmother say latest 1am must sleep le.. >_< i very guai de hor.. keke.. All sort of seafood here everyday.. Today got crab porridge somemore.. Very nice lor.. 1st time eat such stuff.. Don't know what else to update le.. I go check my mails ba.. Going back home at 9.45pm coz later 10pm Ntv7 got KungFu Wonder Kid~ I wanna watch watch..